STARMAKER !

oh man soo every sunday at 10 i watch p.diddy's starmaker show on mtv. i LOVE that show ! i hate some of the people though they too gassed in the head ! i mean theres this girl melody . WTF. she be giving her opinions &+ i honestly think she has no right to be bringin other people dreams down wwhen her herself has a man voice. its pretty disgusting. -__- &+ that girl liz &+ angel. WTF. why they hatin on monet.? she has a bomb voice like why they hating give the girl some credit she rose from the bottom two to the TOP ! now for the dudes. hmph do NOT get me started ! christopher john? OH MY LORD. god made him a beautiful fucking creation ! those lips that smile his swagg &+ on top of all that. HIS VOICE. oh my lorddddddd woooooooooooooo ! hes is beautiful. (: well yeaaa i love starmaker (:

ahh soo i wake up today &+ i just space out thinking about this summer. i learned alot been thru alot &+ i still manage to keep a smile on my face. like thats a big step from the person i used to be. im grown &+ i learned alot. im soo proud of myself. no longer stressin abs. nothing. &+ i care for no one but myself. no one will be there for you forever. &+ i live life for the NOW &+ not my future. cusz you never know when its your time too go. i live my life just the way jeff wanted mee to be. =/ as every days passes by. i miss him more &+ more. i love him soo much. my hearts abs. empty without him .

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jermaine mo fuckn johnson (:

my lil niggaaaaa (: oh mann how the fuck did i meet this ass. oh yeaa.! soo one day in like may i was in inhouse. [pshh how shocking] for leaving school &+ instead of being suspended for 2 days they gave me inhouse. pft. ANYWAYS. i was on my phone &+ i get an i.m from some kid b stuntin bullshit &+ he was tryna BAG. yess he cant deny lmfaoo soo we started talkin from there. yes i caught feeling but they came &+ went like wind ! lol but this is my nigga no doubt. i tell him everything ! even down to the sex life &+ the pipin game. -__- he needa teach people a couple things. COUGH ! nah but this kid stay having me DYING ! jokin on people i abs. HATE ! lmfaoo hahaha! but we do have a hell breaking loose moments where i just cant STAND him he be o.ding but no matter what goes on i know he'll always have my back &+ i can always count on him &+ i trust him alotttt ! i love you niggaaaaaaa.

six flags w. d'aven !

ohh mann i went to six flags yesterday w. my best friend d'aven LMFOOOOO ohh mann i had madd funn !! we went to hurricane harbor &+ it was BOMB we went to this slide shit by ourselves &+ my head got slammed in the slide dead ass i felt like i blacked outt but it was the slide being soo damn darkk ! LMFAOO ! &+ when we got out my foot slamed at the end immense pain ! lmfaoo fuck it right? thenwe went on this other slide that hadda 2 people allowed to get on LMFAOOO i got moppeddd by the waterfall d'aven tells me after i go under jenn omg DUCK THE WATERFALL ! lmfao i turn around w, my obv. face. LMFAOOOOOO. we went back on and he went in front this time &+ i wrapped my legs over his head LMFAOOOOOOOO hahahahahah i was rollin but once again i dint listen &+ i got mopped again by the water fall. soo all in all i gott MOPPED in hurricane harbor. fuick it then we went to grub reall quick &+ then went to wait an hour &+ 15 minutes to ride bizzarro OH MY LORD. i rode that shit 6 times when i went in june. but yesterday. -______- WHOMP WHOMP WHOMP. that shit went fuckin speeding ! wwayyyyyy too fast &+ my seat belt almost came of.. ohhh mann. my voice got lost on that top one LMFAOOOOOOOOOO. mann. tomorrow we going too coco keys. (: we deff gonna have a BOMB timee mann (:

bestie (:

people lemme tell you a liddo something about my best frienddd (:
nikkie jessing means the absolute worldd to me already ! shes my my back bone &+ without her my life would pretyy much be loopy &+ just weird. word. lol but anyways back to being serious. shes that girl i've been looking for all this time ddead ass. ll i ever wanted was a girl best friend who i can confide in tell her everything just be straight up crazy &+ myself with &+ nikkie is herrr (: . i know we got so close in so liddo time. but im glad that she i.med me that day 08.01.09 at ffirst i wwas kinda hesitant but now i just open up like crazy to her. i love nikkie shes a big part of my heart &+ world now.becuase of her i smile every single day becuase i have a best friend like her. &+ i never want to lose her EVERRRR (: i love youuu