soo im officially done w. everything &+ everyone.imma just be a coldhearted bitch. i dont care about anything or anyone im just done. done w. myspacecusz all it does is bring drama. &+ aim becuase all people do is tlk shit tryna act hard using another myspace. i give up on everything. no one is worth it anymore. &+ the one that YOU think do actually matter. do you dirt in the end. &+ break your heart into pieces in some cases. so im deleting all types of communication for now. i just need time alone to think &+ find myself.

JEFF ALEJANDRO ZAMBRANO
December 18th 1987-June 25th 2009
always in our hearts baby<3


-----------my deck of cards will never be the same w.out my joker.----------------
words CANNOT even explain how much this guy means too me. i honestly dont remember how i met him. its been SOO long. i remember sittin in my porch when it was hollween time we used to recieve magazines about party citys new costumes. we stood in my porch for hours just talkin about the costumes. &+ what we were going to wear that year. i remember always having pool partys. one week at your house &+ one week at mines. i remember the day you jumped off my balcony. i thought you were sucha macho mann jumpin off that 3 ft balcony. lmfao you were the MAN ! i remember you jumping off the building across the street. mann i still cant believe they knocked that shit down. omg !! remember DEJAHH ! lmfao insider. tanias said stopped like a donkey ! lol oh mann remember the arabics who lived two house down from us ? LMFAO i forgot to put your hat?! LMFAOO . dude ! memebr biull what did we always say about him "if he dont die i odnt think anyone ever will ! " i cant beleive hes gone too. =/ ehh member when you dated stephanie. WEIRD ! lol you were the pimp of the block like honestly.? baggin the biddys ! lmfao even lice head jackie was sprung on you CHILLOUTT. lmfao memeber my moms stalker ! he used to come overr like 2 times a day ! what was him name? ehh who knows i know mah nigga used to come all the time ! ha he was tryna bag my mom. he used to give us 15 $ each to let him talk alone w. ma memeber ! LMFAOO. i remember your 6th grade graduation ! lmfao your speech was amazing honestly. i was soo happy when you involved my name =/ &+ that deep ass breath you took as a joke lmfao its an insider member when tania fell off the stage.? lmffaoo too funny. aww i remeber when we used to like eachother &+ we dated on the d.l becuase stephanie was o.d jealous cusz you liked me more than her. i remeber pretty much everything that we've been through. &+ even 20 years from now i still wont forget you. jeff you mean the absolute world to me.&+now that youre gona a piece of my heart feels soo damn empty with out you. like i gett soo pissed at the world i scream inside &+ i cry to myself believe it or not. becuase why did you of all people. you were an angel no lie. you put everyones life before yourself. you were my idol &+ my hero. you lost your leg &+ you still were yourself. you still made me smile even as far away from me you were i was stillhappy you will never forget about me. from time to time i stil read messages you written to me on myspace. &+ i cry my eyes out. becuase somehow i feel like you knew it was your time to go. =/ jeff baby i miss you soo muchh. i wish you were back in my life. i wish i couldve just said goodbye. i just wishi had more time with you. what happened to our future. i get soo madd at the world ! like we hadda future together! we were going to college together &+ live togeter ! we were gonna have an apartment together! &+ what happened with our deal baby ! if at 30 if we were still single we were going to get married.? damnn ill always remember you never EVER will i forget about you. becuase you changed my life for the better &+ i know without you i wouldnt be the person i am today. &+ now 3 months later i still cry when people talk about you. &+ i still think of you daily &+ art moments i stare blank at a wall just picturing you. i still see you in my dreams. =/ because of you i just live for the no &+ never the future. i take nothing for granted &+ i appreciate everything you &+ everyones has ever done for me =/ rest in peace joker ! baby i loveyou soo much bro. <3

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hands down, im too proud for love -little bit.


so damn true. the past month or so i've been stressing o.d for two guys. i don't know how it got so outta hand. but it did. &+ end the end i hadda choose. unfortunately i chose the WRONG guy. he did me dirt &+ just like the one i lost said.
in the end you will always get hurt. its up to you how to deal w. the pain. i chose the one i like over the one i love. silly me. ugh. if only i could take back everything that happened. &+ just fix everything i would be fine. life would be great. &+ things wouldnt be soo...idk. complicated. -__-

reunited &+ it feels so good ! (: lmfao

darlanne fabiana fernandez !
we back at it yooo !!

so much to say about her. when i first met her i hated her. then we were good. then we hated eachother &+ so on &+ so forth. at the end of the dsay we're pretty much inseperable. she means a whole lot to me no doubt. no matter how mad i get at her. no matter who says what about her. no matter how much shit she says about me i will always have love for darlanne &+ care deeply about her.! we've been thru soo much ! there was a point &+ time we're we were best friends!!!!! we were INSEPERABLE! &+ hopefully we will become that close again (: she means alot too me. she saved my life after all! [car was comin &+ almost hit me she grabbed me &+ threw me to the floor] i will always have respect for her ! darlanne i love youu soo muchhh !! proof ! lol (:

catchin up.

mann i havent been blogggin for a while soo lemme start catching up with my life
-me &+ "smiley" broke up =/ tear tear
-i finally got with the kid ive been talking to for a year
-regreted it &+ broke up with him beuase i misss "smiley" =/
-school started &+ im doing wicked bomb in ALLL my classes.
-liquor bud &+ guys DO NOT MIX !
lets start with the shocking fact that i doned of the guy "i love" for someone who i like . i mean i start to question if i really "love" him hmmph. i mean when you're in love dont you feel like a new person or some shit like that. or so i've heard. i felt like that in the begining. did i get tired of waiting.? i mean we've been talkin for a year &+ shit &+ now on 090209 he makes it official. no difference what so ever.i hadda break it off. becuase i felt something missing. there was a point &+ time where i was sooo confused as too which one i can see myself with. becuase all i want is someone who is down for me. a real serious relationship. &+ i saw myself with both. obv. i cant have both. with "rapper" like yea i have love for him but its not the same anymore. shits changed. imma always have love for him i mean he was my first ! there was a point &+ time where he was my EVERYTHING ! but i slowly been distancing myself away from him. &+ idkk i just dont see myself with him now. &+ "smiley". idkk its something about him (: his smile when we talk idk when im with him my heart races. i see him from far &+ i actually get butterflies ! like i feel like a little kid just talking about him like this. its a kindergarten crush i guess. lol. at the end i just wanna be with one. but idk whats good with me &+ him. =/ so im not stressin it.but i do wanna be with him believe it or not. school ! doing extra bomb like i feel im gonna make the honor roll this yearr yesss (: maybe repeating junior year again isnt gonna be so bad after all. i mean since im repeating might as well dooo bomb becuase junior year is the most important year in high school the year where all colleges look at. &+ if they see my improvement deff getting a scholarship in a heart beat. becuase no doubt im smart as hell i just needa extra push &+ stop being soo damn lazy lol. but this year im different. i have no classes with none of my friends soo im good. imma pass for sure (: . &+ ohh mann this weekend was INSANE. lets say some people &+ liquor. no no no . so many regretful things happened that night. none to be talked about becuase it had nothing to do with me. i helped my friends as much as i could but some things were just outta my reach. =/ i mean come onn i hadda drag her all around she did NOT wanna get UP ! i called everyone to help i couldnt do it alone! but at the end you realize whose really down for you when your drunk no doubt. butt yess thats it for now. (: