Thursday, November 26, 2009
So i was sitting at daniris house while everyone was sleeping. and i just stood up sitting just thinkin staring at the clock. sounds weird? whatever. im thinking about the past year whats been going on. &+ i dead ass been a complete bitch when it comes to relationships. i just don't care about no ones feelings. i been hurt over &+ over again. so i do the same to others as others done to me. i just gave myself a reality check &+ i see the mistakes ive made. here i have the best boyfriend in the world &+ i legit take advantage of him. not intentionally i do it without noticing. small shit pushing him laughin when i see guys from my past. i put myself in his shoes &+ i dead ass dont know how he has the patience to look at me &+ still tells me he loves e to my face with a smile. i feel like complete shit about how i treat him &+ im soo soo sorry. never will i cheat on him. but it sees like the shit ive done is creeping up behind me &+ theres no way to change it. &+ after yesterday i feel like im losing him slowly &+ slowly &+ to be honest im terrified. i asked for a second chance &+ he opened himself up to trust me again &+ im abusing it. after yesterday hes the one who apologized but in all honesty its me who should be apologizing. for the way i treat him. he deserves the world and more definitely not how ive been treating him. he dunned everyone for me and i just took advantage.i love him soo soo much. ive lost him more than once. &+ its not a good feeling. i just feel like its going the same way again. =/ but as of today im changing just for him. the games are gonna stop &+ imma just do a coplete change becuase i dead ass dont wanna lose him. but thats only if it isnt too late.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Friday, October 30, 2009
10.29.08
yesterday was legit the WORST day of my life. first my friend didnt give me my clothes that i left at his house &+ i didnt have any clothes becuase all my clothes are dirty becuase my washer machine is broken -__- then we get to 1&2nd period [blocked class] &+ this girl who i got a crush on was cursing me out becuase i accidently stepped on her r.o.t.c shoes. she was o.d callin me wreckless klutz a bitch madd shit. like wtf dude it was a fuckn accident ugh. then 3rd period when i walk in i say ms. im having a bad day dont test me today. she tells me to sit in a corner &+ dont talk so i was like whatever. [a couple of weeks wack this bitch gives me a pass to my locker to get my sweater &+ i come back &+ someone took my book. north high has a bunch of thieves] so anyways shes yelling at my where is my book in her tree language [shes african or something] &+ i told her &+ she remembers she made us work in groups &+ then she said something yelling at the class calling us stupid soo obv. knowing my self i flipped out. on this bitch. i was like dont fuckn insult my intelligence la la la. i was superr heated. &+ she told my friend oh control me LIKE IF I WAS SO KIND OF DOG. i was like do i fuckn barkk wtf? i flipppeddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd i blacked out yelling. &+ i accidently slipped out go back to africa.&+ i left chilled w. my principal becuase b4 anything she was my teacher for like 3 years. (: so then. i went to 4th &+ 5th everything was fine &+ so was 6-7 till i went to the bathroom &+ they called me down. like saying um fuckn SUSPENDED for 5 days for telling the bitch go back to africa. like wtf??????????? so i flipped out again saying i didnt say that shit. thats forced. ya know the good stuff. &+ i brought put a point that if they suspended me for saying something i didnt even say half of the school should be suspended for saying nigga. like wtf. its the same shit. just cornering me out. i fuckn hate that school. they cant prove it was me anyways. so yea &+ then my day was going okay better actually. i went to the greendale mall my with my friends priscilla &+ sara. (: got some applications &+ got this sexyy ass costume. i loook FIERCEEEEE. lol (: we decided to take picturesss in the photo booth &+ my day went horriblee againnnnnn becuase the machine ate my 3 dollars &+ never gave me my pictures becuase it fuckn didnt have ink. then i was soo pumped for the dance last night &+ i bought my friend darlanne a ticket &+ daniris was supposed to come &+ they both ditched me. great soo then i went with sara &+ nikan. idance was o.d wack waste of my 5 dollars. this year it was madd wack dead ass. i was getting it a couple of times though.(: but yes. i had to walk home &+ i stepped in fuckn dog shit. -_____- worst day of my life. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
Sunday, October 25, 2009
ahh cassandra
well this girl. idk where to start. freshamn year? yea lets start there. lol.(: i was a new girl i didnt know abs. no one. until andrea carenzo started talking to me because i had a crush on tito garcia &+ she liked frankie peterson &+ we became friends on myspace &+ we became madd close. she always told me about her best friend cassandra [not best friends anymore]. i never knew who she was until they switched my classes to honors.&+ lucky me i got to sit next to her. we started talking &+ somehow i got closer to her than i ever was to andrea. she became my best friend. we argued like any other friendship but we were always tight. there was a point &+ time i trusted her with abs. EVERYTHING. she know everything she was like my other half pretty much. we were inseperable we chilled everyday day &+ night just having a blast. until summer 08 came. i honestly do not even rememeber what happened. drama started. found out some crap. she started talkin shit. there was a point &+ time i wanted to bash her face in. &+ till this day like a year &+ a half later we still hate eachother &+ when i see her in the halls we still basically push eachother out of the way. lol she still talks shit &+ i still flip her off. (: i dont like her. but honestly. one of these days. i needa thank her. becuase of her i found love(: lol corny i know but i did. im abs. happy that i found him &+ if she wasnt sucha hoe &+ whatnot i wouldve never met him &+ we still going strong a year &+ like 3 months later. (: so whereever you areeeee. i hope you read thiss &+ i thank youuuu (: &+ she might be madd im writing about her. but ehh i dont care. im grateful that you changed my life. (: thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
so i seen him today. &+ everything was just different. i left &+ the words that just stuck to me. "jenn..i just dont care anymore" like damn. i felt my world just collide right then &+ there. like how can i respond to that i didnt do nothing but walk away. ugh. what i learned from this is not to wear my emotions on my sleeve. i cried im not gonan lie. but am i gonna stay stuck on him for ever? no. just like my bestie jeff always said nothings ever impossible. so i know for a fact that it isnt impossible to fall in lvoe again to find someone whose actually down for me when i fuck up he' there to call me out on it. that he actually give me a second chance when i admit im wrong. someone who'll ALWAYS be there when shit gets hard &+ is there to help me get back on my feet. someone who i know i can depend on not someone who appears in &+ out of my life. i wasted dead ass. WASTED a year of mmy life with him. &+ im not planning to waste another year or maybe more crying over him. imma do me. something that i shouldve realized &+ done now that i look back &+ see the mistake i made of even meeting you. let alone actually giving my heart &+ gave my all to something to someone who isnt even nothing anymore. just ike he told me he didnt care. is just like i threw my heart out. i have no hate towards him. nor any love to be honest. if i were to never talk to him again. i would actually be okay with it. its nothing against him in all honesty. becuase i did fuck up. but was it that serious to just end shit forever just like that? after all we been thru? like he just let everything go. but its fine. i guess this blog is more like a good bye. rather than my expressing my feelings. bottom line? im just heartless i dont give a fuck. never will give a fuck. and hes just not worth it anymore.and the guy i fell for was definetly not the guy that looked in my eyes &+ told me that today.im moving on. &+ never will i look back again. &+ dat all. (:
Saturday, October 10, 2009
holy crap ! how long has it been since i blogged.? fuck.? lol i totally abonded this bloog. no fear i am here again &+ shall be bloggin more often (: . hmmph. where to start. oh ! lets start with school. &+ the fact that i have to start an extra semester for one fuckn credit !! ONE! f.m.l -__- lol but my schedules soo packed &+ i get shitloads of homework EVERYday i have two math classes algebra 1 &+ geometry. &+ two sciences. biology 1 &+ 2. &+ my two math cclasses are YEAR long! f.m.l lol. but suprissingly im doing abs. BOMB. progress report lowest grade 92 WHA WHA!? lol (: but lifes going pretty bomb right now. im labeled as a junior but its okay. might as well do my junior year all over again &+ do it right &+ get everything done. like psats. mcas.go on gear up trips to colleges. look at scholarships. becuase since im repeating junior year again &+ im doing abs. BOMB colleeges gonna see my transcript &+ ill get accepted to a good college instaed of quinsig. which seems to be everyones option. i really dont wanna go to a community college. but yes. ahh school (: gotta love it.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
soo im officially done w. everything &+ everyone.imma just be a coldhearted bitch. i dont care about anything or anyone im just done. done w. myspacecusz all it does is bring drama. &+ aim becuase all people do is tlk shit tryna act hard using another myspace. i give up on everything. no one is worth it anymore. &+ the one that YOU think do actually matter. do you dirt in the end. &+ break your heart into pieces in some cases. so im deleting all types of communication for now. i just need time alone to think &+ find myself.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
JEFF ALEJANDRO ZAMBRANO
December 18th 1987-June 25th 2009
always in our hearts baby<3
-----------my deck of cards will never be the same w.out my joker.----------------
words CANNOT even explain how much this guy means too me. i honestly dont remember how i met him. its been SOO long. i remember sittin in my porch when it was hollween time we used to recieve magazines about party citys new costumes. we stood in my porch for hours just talkin about the costumes. &+ what we were going to wear that year. i remember always having pool partys. one week at your house &+ one week at mines. i remember the day you jumped off my balcony. i thought you were sucha macho mann jumpin off that 3 ft balcony. lmfao you were the MAN ! i remember you jumping off the building across the street. mann i still cant believe they knocked that shit down. omg !! remember DEJAHH ! lmfao insider. tanias said stopped like a donkey ! lol oh mann remember the arabics who lived two house down from us ? LMFAO i forgot to put your hat?! LMFAOO . dude ! memebr biull what did we always say about him "if he dont die i odnt think anyone ever will ! " i cant beleive hes gone too. =/ ehh member when you dated stephanie. WEIRD ! lol you were the pimp of the block like honestly.? baggin the biddys ! lmfao even lice head jackie was sprung on you CHILLOUTT. lmfao memeber my moms stalker ! he used to come overr like 2 times a day ! what was him name? ehh who knows i know mah nigga used to come all the time ! ha he was tryna bag my mom. he used to give us 15 $ each to let him talk alone w. ma memeber ! LMFAOO. i remember your 6th grade graduation ! lmfao your speech was amazing honestly. i was soo happy when you involved my name =/ &+ that deep ass breath you took as a joke lmfao its an insider member when tania fell off the stage.? lmffaoo too funny. aww i remeber when we used to like eachother &+ we dated on the d.l becuase stephanie was o.d jealous cusz you liked me more than her. i remeber pretty much everything that we've been through. &+ even 20 years from now i still wont forget you. jeff you mean the absolute world to me.&+now that youre gona a piece of my heart feels soo damn empty with out you. like i gett soo pissed at the world i scream inside &+ i cry to myself believe it or not. becuase why did you of all people. you were an angel no lie. you put everyones life before yourself. you were my idol &+ my hero. you lost your leg &+ you still were yourself. you still made me smile even as far away from me you were i was stillhappy you will never forget about me. from time to time i stil read messages you written to me on myspace. &+ i cry my eyes out. becuase somehow i feel like you knew it was your time to go. =/ jeff baby i miss you soo muchh. i wish you were back in my life. i wish i couldve just said goodbye. i just wishi had more time with you. what happened to our future. i get soo madd at the world ! like we hadda future together! we were going to college together &+ live togeter ! we were gonna have an apartment together! &+ what happened with our deal baby ! if at 30 if we were still single we were going to get married.? damnn ill always remember you never EVER will i forget about you. becuase you changed my life for the better &+ i know without you i wouldnt be the person i am today. &+ now 3 months later i still cry when people talk about you. &+ i still think of you daily &+ art moments i stare blank at a wall just picturing you. i still see you in my dreams. =/ because of you i just live for the no &+ never the future. i take nothing for granted &+ i appreciate everything you &+ everyones has ever done for me =/ rest in peace joker ! baby i loveyou soo much bro. <3
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
<33
hands down, im too proud for love -little bit.
so damn true. the past month or so i've been stressing o.d for two guys. i don't know how it got so outta hand. but it did. &+ end the end i hadda choose. unfortunately i chose the WRONG guy. he did me dirt &+ just like the one i lost said.
in the end you will always get hurt. its up to you how to deal w. the pain. i chose the one i like over the one i love. silly me. ugh. if only i could take back everything that happened. &+ just fix everything i would be fine. life would be great. &+ things wouldnt be soo...idk. complicated. -__-
so damn true. the past month or so i've been stressing o.d for two guys. i don't know how it got so outta hand. but it did. &+ end the end i hadda choose. unfortunately i chose the WRONG guy. he did me dirt &+ just like the one i lost said.
in the end you will always get hurt. its up to you how to deal w. the pain. i chose the one i like over the one i love. silly me. ugh. if only i could take back everything that happened. &+ just fix everything i would be fine. life would be great. &+ things wouldnt be soo...idk. complicated. -__-
Monday, September 14, 2009
reunited &+ it feels so good ! (: lmfao
darlanne fabiana fernandez !
we back at it yooo !!
so much to say about her. when i first met her i hated her. then we were good. then we hated eachother &+ so on &+ so forth. at the end of the dsay we're pretty much inseperable. she means a whole lot to me no doubt. no matter how mad i get at her. no matter who says what about her. no matter how much shit she says about me i will always have love for darlanne &+ care deeply about her.! we've been thru soo much ! there was a point &+ time we're we were best friends!!!!! we were INSEPERABLE! &+ hopefully we will become that close again (: she means alot too me. she saved my life after all! [car was comin &+ almost hit me she grabbed me &+ threw me to the floor] i will always have respect for her ! darlanne i love youu soo muchhh !! proof ! lol (:
we back at it yooo !!
so much to say about her. when i first met her i hated her. then we were good. then we hated eachother &+ so on &+ so forth. at the end of the dsay we're pretty much inseperable. she means a whole lot to me no doubt. no matter how mad i get at her. no matter who says what about her. no matter how much shit she says about me i will always have love for darlanne &+ care deeply about her.! we've been thru soo much ! there was a point &+ time we're we were best friends!!!!! we were INSEPERABLE! &+ hopefully we will become that close again (: she means alot too me. she saved my life after all! [car was comin &+ almost hit me she grabbed me &+ threw me to the floor] i will always have respect for her ! darlanne i love youu soo muchhh !! proof ! lol (:
catchin up.
mann i havent been blogggin for a while soo lemme start catching up with my life
-me &+ "smiley" broke up =/ tear tear
-i finally got with the kid ive been talking to for a year
-regreted it &+ broke up with him beuase i misss "smiley" =/
-school started &+ im doing wicked bomb in ALLL my classes.
-liquor bud &+ guys DO NOT MIX !
lets start with the shocking fact that i doned of the guy "i love" for someone who i like . i mean i start to question if i really "love" him hmmph. i mean when you're in love dont you feel like a new person or some shit like that. or so i've heard. i felt like that in the begining. did i get tired of waiting.? i mean we've been talkin for a year &+ shit &+ now on 090209 he makes it official. no difference what so ever.i hadda break it off. becuase i felt something missing. there was a point &+ time where i was sooo confused as too which one i can see myself with. becuase all i want is someone who is down for me. a real serious relationship. &+ i saw myself with both. obv. i cant have both. with "rapper" like yea i have love for him but its not the same anymore. shits changed. imma always have love for him i mean he was my first ! there was a point &+ time where he was my EVERYTHING ! but i slowly been distancing myself away from him. &+ idkk i just dont see myself with him now. &+ "smiley". idkk its something about him (: his smile when we talk idk when im with him my heart races. i see him from far &+ i actually get butterflies ! like i feel like a little kid just talking about him like this. its a kindergarten crush i guess. lol. at the end i just wanna be with one. but idk whats good with me &+ him. =/ so im not stressin it.but i do wanna be with him believe it or not. school ! doing extra bomb like i feel im gonna make the honor roll this yearr yesss (: maybe repeating junior year again isnt gonna be so bad after all. i mean since im repeating might as well dooo bomb becuase junior year is the most important year in high school the year where all colleges look at. &+ if they see my improvement deff getting a scholarship in a heart beat. becuase no doubt im smart as hell i just needa extra push &+ stop being soo damn lazy lol. but this year im different. i have no classes with none of my friends soo im good. imma pass for sure (: . &+ ohh mann this weekend was INSANE. lets say some people &+ liquor. no no no . so many regretful things happened that night. none to be talked about becuase it had nothing to do with me. i helped my friends as much as i could but some things were just outta my reach. =/ i mean come onn i hadda drag her all around she did NOT wanna get UP ! i called everyone to help i couldnt do it alone! but at the end you realize whose really down for you when your drunk no doubt. butt yess thats it for now. (:
-me &+ "smiley" broke up =/ tear tear
-i finally got with the kid ive been talking to for a year
-regreted it &+ broke up with him beuase i misss "smiley" =/
-school started &+ im doing wicked bomb in ALLL my classes.
-liquor bud &+ guys DO NOT MIX !
lets start with the shocking fact that i doned of the guy "i love" for someone who i like . i mean i start to question if i really "love" him hmmph. i mean when you're in love dont you feel like a new person or some shit like that. or so i've heard. i felt like that in the begining. did i get tired of waiting.? i mean we've been talkin for a year &+ shit &+ now on 090209 he makes it official. no difference what so ever.i hadda break it off. becuase i felt something missing. there was a point &+ time where i was sooo confused as too which one i can see myself with. becuase all i want is someone who is down for me. a real serious relationship. &+ i saw myself with both. obv. i cant have both. with "rapper" like yea i have love for him but its not the same anymore. shits changed. imma always have love for him i mean he was my first ! there was a point &+ time where he was my EVERYTHING ! but i slowly been distancing myself away from him. &+ idkk i just dont see myself with him now. &+ "smiley". idkk its something about him (: his smile when we talk idk when im with him my heart races. i see him from far &+ i actually get butterflies ! like i feel like a little kid just talking about him like this. its a kindergarten crush i guess. lol. at the end i just wanna be with one. but idk whats good with me &+ him. =/ so im not stressin it.but i do wanna be with him believe it or not. school ! doing extra bomb like i feel im gonna make the honor roll this yearr yesss (: maybe repeating junior year again isnt gonna be so bad after all. i mean since im repeating might as well dooo bomb becuase junior year is the most important year in high school the year where all colleges look at. &+ if they see my improvement deff getting a scholarship in a heart beat. becuase no doubt im smart as hell i just needa extra push &+ stop being soo damn lazy lol. but this year im different. i have no classes with none of my friends soo im good. imma pass for sure (: . &+ ohh mann this weekend was INSANE. lets say some people &+ liquor. no no no . so many regretful things happened that night. none to be talked about becuase it had nothing to do with me. i helped my friends as much as i could but some things were just outta my reach. =/ i mean come onn i hadda drag her all around she did NOT wanna get UP ! i called everyone to help i couldnt do it alone! but at the end you realize whose really down for you when your drunk no doubt. butt yess thats it for now. (:
Monday, August 31, 2009
STARMAKER !
oh man soo every sunday at 10 i watch p.diddy's starmaker show on mtv. i LOVE that show ! i hate some of the people though they too gassed in the head ! i mean theres this girl melody . WTF. she be giving her opinions &+ i honestly think she has no right to be bringin other people dreams down wwhen her herself has a man voice. its pretty disgusting. -__- &+ that girl liz &+ angel. WTF. why they hatin on monet.? she has a bomb voice like why they hating give the girl some credit she rose from the bottom two to the TOP ! now for the dudes. hmph do NOT get me started ! christopher john? OH MY LORD. god made him a beautiful fucking creation ! those lips that smile his swagg &+ on top of all that. HIS VOICE. oh my lorddddddd woooooooooooooo ! hes is beautiful. (: well yeaaa i love starmaker (:
Saturday, August 29, 2009
ahh soo i wake up today &+ i just space out thinking about this summer. i learned alot been thru alot &+ i still manage to keep a smile on my face. like thats a big step from the person i used to be. im grown &+ i learned alot. im soo proud of myself. no longer stressin abs. nothing. &+ i care for no one but myself. no one will be there for you forever. &+ i live life for the NOW &+ not my future. cusz you never know when its your time too go. i live my life just the way jeff wanted mee to be. =/ as every days passes by. i miss him more &+ more. i love him soo much. my hearts abs. empty without him .
Friday, August 28, 2009
jermaine mo fuckn johnson (:
my lil niggaaaaa (: oh mann how the fuck did i meet this ass. oh yeaa.! soo one day in like may i was in inhouse. [pshh how shocking] for leaving school &+ instead of being suspended for 2 days they gave me inhouse. pft. ANYWAYS. i was on my phone &+ i get an i.m from some kid b stuntin bullshit &+ he was tryna BAG. yess he cant deny lmfaoo soo we started talkin from there. yes i caught feeling but they came &+ went like wind ! lol but this is my nigga no doubt. i tell him everything ! even down to the sex life &+ the pipin game. -__- he needa teach people a couple things. COUGH ! nah but this kid stay having me DYING ! jokin on people i abs. HATE ! lmfaoo hahaha! but we do have a hell breaking loose moments where i just cant STAND him he be o.ding but no matter what goes on i know he'll always have my back &+ i can always count on him &+ i trust him alotttt ! i love you niggaaaaaaa.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
six flags w. d'aven !
ohh mann i went to six flags yesterday w. my best friend d'aven LMFOOOOO ohh mann i had madd funn !! we went to hurricane harbor &+ it was BOMB we went to this slide shit by ourselves &+ my head got slammed in the slide dead ass i felt like i blacked outt but it was the slide being soo damn darkk ! LMFAOO ! &+ when we got out my foot slamed at the end immense pain ! lmfaoo fuck it right? thenwe went on this other slide that hadda 2 people allowed to get on LMFAOOO i got moppeddd by the waterfall d'aven tells me after i go under jenn omg DUCK THE WATERFALL ! lmfao i turn around w, my obv. face. LMFAOOOOOO. we went back on and he went in front this time &+ i wrapped my legs over his head LMFAOOOOOOOO hahahahahah i was rollin but once again i dint listen &+ i got mopped again by the water fall. soo all in all i gott MOPPED in hurricane harbor. fuick it then we went to grub reall quick &+ then went to wait an hour &+ 15 minutes to ride bizzarro OH MY LORD. i rode that shit 6 times when i went in june. but yesterday. -______- WHOMP WHOMP WHOMP. that shit went fuckin speeding ! wwayyyyyy too fast &+ my seat belt almost came of.. ohhh mann. my voice got lost on that top one LMFAOOOOOOOOOO. mann. tomorrow we going too coco keys. (: we deff gonna have a BOMB timee mann (:
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
bestie (:
people lemme tell you a liddo something about my best frienddd (:
nikkie jessing means the absolute worldd to me already ! shes my my back bone &+ without her my life would pretyy much be loopy &+ just weird. word. lol but anyways back to being serious. shes that girl i've been looking for all this time ddead ass. ll i ever wanted was a girl best friend who i can confide in tell her everything just be straight up crazy &+ myself with &+ nikkie is herrr (: . i know we got so close in so liddo time. but im glad that she i.med me that day 08.01.09 at ffirst i wwas kinda hesitant but now i just open up like crazy to her. i love nikkie shes a big part of my heart &+ world now.becuase of her i smile every single day becuase i have a best friend like her. &+ i never want to lose her EVERRRR (: i love youuu
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
ughhhhhh
why cant people just accept friendships anymore.? i dont get it. why do people still hold grudges.? i mean an incident that occured back in may which i didnt do. &+ still holding shit against me.? makes no type of sense. i become real close to someone who once before was my best friend &+ no one is okay with that. why talk bad about her thats not fair to her at all honestly =/ everyones turning against her for me its not right . just when i thought we were all good. but i guess not. but its whatever. in all honesty. no one needs friends. you was born alone your future your gonna go thru ir yourself &+ when you die. you die by ya self. you need no one becuase when we all graduate i really doubt we all gonna even talk to eachother. soo fuck it. :]
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
week of 07.19.09 <3
mee &++ daniris (:
me &+ sheldon (:
alright so this whole weekend i've been chilling w. daniris have a BOMB time. i go to her house at like 8 in the morning &+ just chill walk around plummley do errands madd stuuff but we always have fun lol. so on thursday the 23rd we came to my house &+ decided to invite our friend andre &+ his cousin sheldon [who i hadda tiny crush on since like holloween of 07' lol] to come to my house just to chill so we fell asleep on them but then we woke up &+ realized we were supposed to meet them on prov soo we jetted up there &+ we walked back home so we started taking pictures &+ ishh and we were all laying down &+ sheldon looked lonely so i decided to accompany him &+ mann we got into a deep ass conversation i was asking him 21 questions lmfaoo interrogating his ass. &+ after soo much time of me having a crush on him i finally had the guts to tell him!! i asked him when he was gonna let me bag haha &+ idk how but daniris played matchmaker &+ it was soo funny cusz we kissed &+ i turned sooo reddddddd !! i was madd gassed for real so yea now hes my awesome boyfriendd :] hes soo cuteee. hopefully we last a longg timeeee <333
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
07.21.09
FINALLY TODAYS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL ! wooooooooo i start walking with shanrnice &+ qlorii my big brucies ! lmfaoo &+ before everything we went to dunkin' donuts grubbedd REALLL quick &+ our teacher ms. mogera asked where we dha fuck we was at &+ she was all like hook it up w. a coolatta like what IS GOOD ! lol soo we get her one &+ we call a cab it waas soooooooo funny cuz this cab guy was deff tryna BAG ! lmfaooo he was o.d jammn' to bachata bringin the windows down to let all of WORCESTER know he was jammin' to luis vargas LMFAOOOOO. me sharnice &+ qlorii were DYING in the back cuz he kept tryna tell me i wasnt dominican like how you sound ! lol lmfaooo it was soo funny then we get to school &+ somehow he waited for qlorii &+ neicey to get out the car &+ he dead ass locked me in the cab ! he was all like diablo mami you lookin madd good my names nelson ma lmfaoo this nigga was like a good 45 years old fat ass all hell lookin like a overgrown mole. lmfaoo fuckn' petophile haha he unlocked me form the cab not before he gave me his card &+ asked me for a kiss. nasty nigga lmfaoo but yea today was an okay day until my fuckin stalker [no names] dead ass grilled me down going home like wtf. -__- but that was my day lol :]
Monday, July 20, 2009
wookie <33 (:
the guy i love with all my heart !! (:
alright where to start w. mr. anton. lol wookie wookie wookie. uhm i actually seen him around school when i was a freshman. back then when he thought he was the shit fuckin girls &+ leavin he was a bad kid. i never noticed him. then he was talkin to my good friend cassandra. &+ from what i heard from her he was awful hurtful &+ he just wanted sex &+ never wanted a girl. pftt why talk to a dude like that i always told her. when i saw her cry july 2nd 2008 on her birthday i decided to curse this mother fucka out ! he hurt my best friend ! like wtf is good w. him! so i friend requested him &+ he tried to sweet talk me &+ what not noo noo noo ! hadda tell him what was goin on w. cassandra. he told me the truth &+ i just looked at this girl at a totally different perspective. we got into an arguement &+ we didnt like eachother. anyways. my friend andrea was talking to this kid jones. &+ shes been sneakin out to go see him &+ said i should go too. soo i say why not.? i snuck out chilled &+ hadda bomb time. we came two days later &+ look whose there ! WOOKKIEEEEEE ! alright im not gonna lie he was cute in person but i didnt see him like that i mean he fucked loose neck cassandra . eww.? me him andrea amber &+ magic all looked like bums in the middle of the street just talking till like 6 in the morning it was bomb haha (: i had to admit i had a crush on him. he wrote to me on myspace the next day told me to come over cusz they're going pool hopping. so i was like lets doo this. so me andrea amber &+ darlanne get there &+ we started jumpin fences &+ pool hoppin &+ i seen this nigga naked lmfaoo ! so we started playing truth or dare &+ the dreaded kiss between me &+ isasis. i mean i mean he liked me but idkk . i couldnt deny him so it was only me &+ him in the pool just talkin &+ kissin i felt madd weird cusz i was actually thinkin about wookie. hehe. so we get out &+ i remember the exact words he told me "damn jenn you got me a lil jealous" my heart started beating mad fast never knew why soo bla bla bla i admitted i liked him &+ me andrea amber &+ darlanne were in the room with wookie magic &+ jones lmfao everyone started making out &+ shit lmfaoo &+ all of a sudden all you hear. POP BOTTLES ! LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOO i was dying ! niggas was tryna kick darlanne out lol wasnt happening. ANYWAYS. summer came &+ went i started chillin w. wookie everyday &+ i caught madd feelings. there was this one time he climbed in my window &+ we just talked for hours &+ we kissed &+ fell asleep together it was soo cute. (: then in like august he went to job corps. i was madd sad.shit happened made us seperate for a while but he was still in my mind. i hadda boyfriend when i talked to him again just recently broken up. &+ i told him to come over to chill. and thats when i lost my virginity to him haha. we became real close after that. &+ somehow i fell in love with him (: . like i know we seperate for a while after that &+ we became close again like reall close. i started believing the world over him i needed a break from him &+ we still on a break. but i hope he knows no matter what happens between us that i love him with all my heart. hes like my best friend &+ i trust him with everything. hes my backbone &+ as mad as i get at him i cant just stop talking to him &+ no one will compare to him EVER ! &+ i see us having something real special in the future. &+ any guy that i date or any girl he dates i hope he know i'll always hold him down no matter what. we've been thru hell &+ back &+ back to hell. lol i love you babe. dont ever doubt that for a single second. becuase my feelings will never stop just continue growing (:
Sunday, July 19, 2009
LOCKED UP !
i love this girl more than words can explain brittany harris la torre =/
ugh so yesterday was such a lonngggg day. it was filled with tear jerking moments "betrayal" scary situations &+ life changing lessons. so i wake up at like 10 to a freaking phone call its brittany's [my best friend] grandmother asking where do i live so i tell her &+ met her outside becuase she's from new york &+ knows nothing about worcester so i invite her inside &+ tells me to help her find britt. brittany ran away from home 3 days ago &+ since shes my best friend of course i was covering for her. she was staying at my house slept &+ ate until my mom came home from work &+ the she went to our other friend kia's house but the cops invaded that shit so she was roaming around which got me o.d worried ! but i still didnt say anything. soo her grandma gets on her knees &+ BEGS me to tell her something to help her find her becuase shes really worried. i didnt fall for it i told her i dont know anything at all. so she starts bawling &+ begging even more she started choking &+ she threw up on my legs. FORCED. i felt really bad &+ since imma softy to people who cry especially elderly i agreed to help. so i took a shower &+ just when i got out fucking cops were at my house &+ cuffed my ass FORCED once again. supposivly im get arrested for conspiracy or some shit like that i wasnt listening.niggas didnt even let me put nothing in my hair so i was in a holding cell for about 2 hours felt like 3 years !. i realized i was in the same holding cell brittany was in the year before so i carved my name in there as well ! :] but yeah brittanys mom &+ grandmother bailed me out as long as i helped. i said i didnt know anything else &+ the police asked me if i knew some girl kia (place where police raided becuase britt was staying there) i said i do but not well enough considering me &+ britt met her last month. they made a plan to make it seem i was looking for britt becuase britt didnt know anything. at first i didnt want to but i felt soo bad for the grandmother. so i agreed. they let me go i went inside kias &+ they knew NOTHING of britt. so i told them if she gets there tell her to come to my house. we searched for hours until my mom calls brittanys grandmother cellphone saying brittany just left my house. we pratically flew over there! we ran thru east middle looking for her we went to my friend glorias &+ then my friend andrea where she was . i didnt even want to tell on her honestly. but i thought about it. she was trying to be on the run for 1 year &+ 3 months. no one wouldve supported her that long &+ her family was really worried. i let them know she was in the house without her knowing, &+ finally she was caught. &+ before everything she told me she hated me &+ called me a bitch. man did that hurt. her mother &+ grandmother were soo grateful &+ they told me i was there hero &+ gaurdian angel i felt happy they said that but i lost my best friend the only person that was there through everything. but her mom &+ grandmother told me "you know jenn brittany might be mad now but in time she'll be grateful you may not believe it but you saved her life &+ we love you for that" so yeah i helped them find her but i did it for her own good i rather have her home with her family then running around like a lunatic soon to bee looking in trash cans for food. =/so as we speak shes arrested &+ she'll be serving at least a month in a rehab but i hope she learns a lesson. &+ i hope she has in her heart to forgive me &+ know i only did the best for her.=/
