so i seen him today. &+ everything was just different. i left &+ the words that just stuck to me. "jenn..i just dont care anymore" like damn. i felt my world just collide right then &+ there. like how can i respond to that i didnt do nothing but walk away. ugh. what i learned from this is not to wear my emotions on my sleeve. i cried im not gonan lie. but am i gonna stay stuck on him for ever? no. just like my bestie jeff always said nothings ever impossible. so i know for a fact that it isnt impossible to fall in lvoe again to find someone whose actually down for me when i fuck up he' there to call me out on it. that he actually give me a second chance when i admit im wrong. someone who'll ALWAYS be there when shit gets hard &+ is there to help me get back on my feet. someone who i know i can depend on not someone who appears in &+ out of my life. i wasted dead ass. WASTED a year of mmy life with him. &+ im not planning to waste another year or maybe more crying over him. imma do me. something that i shouldve realized &+ done now that i look back &+ see the mistake i made of even meeting you. let alone actually giving my heart &+ gave my all to something to someone who isnt even nothing anymore. just ike he told me he didnt care. is just like i threw my heart out. i have no hate towards him. nor any love to be honest. if i were to never talk to him again. i would actually be okay with it. its nothing against him in all honesty. becuase i did fuck up. but was it that serious to just end shit forever just like that? after all we been thru? like he just let everything go. but its fine. i guess this blog is more like a good bye. rather than my expressing my feelings. bottom line? im just heartless i dont give a fuck. never will give a fuck. and hes just not worth it anymore.and the guy i fell for was definetly not the guy that looked in my eyes &+ told me that today.im moving on. &+ never will i look back again. &+ dat all. (: