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why cant people just accept friendships anymore.? i dont get it. why do people still hold grudges.? i mean an incident that occured back in may which i didnt do. &+ still holding shit against me.? makes no type of sense. i become real close to someone who once before was my best friend &+ no one is okay with that. why talk bad about her thats not fair to her at all honestly =/ everyones turning against her for me its not right . just when i thought we were all good. but i guess not. but its whatever. in all honesty. no one needs friends. you was born alone your future your gonna go thru ir yourself &+ when you die. you die by ya self. you need no one becuase when we all graduate i really doubt we all gonna even talk to eachother. soo fuck it. :]

week of 07.19.09 <3

mee &++ daniris (:


me &+ sheldon (:
alright so this whole weekend i've been chilling w. daniris have a BOMB time. i go to her house at like 8 in the morning &+ just chill walk around plummley do errands madd stuuff but we always have fun lol. so on thursday the 23rd we came to my house &+ decided to invite our friend andre &+ his cousin sheldon [who i hadda tiny crush on since like holloween of 07' lol] to come to my house just to chill so we fell asleep on them but then we woke up &+ realized we were supposed to meet them on prov soo we jetted up there &+ we walked back home so we started taking pictures &+ ishh and we were all laying down &+ sheldon looked lonely so i decided to accompany him &+ mann we got into a deep ass conversation i was asking him 21 questions lmfaoo interrogating his ass. &+ after soo much time of me having a crush on him i finally had the guts to tell him!! i asked him when he was gonna let me bag haha &+ idk how but daniris played matchmaker &+ it was soo funny cusz we kissed &+ i turned sooo reddddddd !! i was madd gassed for real so yea now hes my awesome boyfriendd :] hes soo cuteee. hopefully we last a longg timeeee <333

07.21.09

FINALLY TODAYS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL ! wooooooooo i start walking with shanrnice &+ qlorii my big brucies ! lmfaoo &+ before everything we went to dunkin' donuts grubbedd REALLL quick &+ our teacher ms. mogera asked where we dha fuck we was at &+ she was all like hook it up w. a coolatta like what IS GOOD ! lol soo we get her one &+ we call a cab it waas soooooooo funny cuz this cab guy was deff tryna BAG ! lmfaooo he was o.d jammn' to bachata bringin the windows down to let all of WORCESTER know he was jammin' to luis vargas LMFAOOOOO. me sharnice &+ qlorii were DYING in the back cuz he kept tryna tell me i wasnt dominican like how you sound ! lol lmfaooo it was soo funny then we get to school &+ somehow he waited for qlorii &+ neicey to get out the car &+ he dead ass locked me in the cab ! he was all like diablo mami you lookin madd good my names nelson ma lmfaoo this nigga was like a good 45 years old fat ass all hell lookin like a overgrown mole. lmfaoo fuckn' petophile haha he unlocked me form the cab not before he gave me his card &+ asked me for a kiss. nasty nigga lmfaoo but yea today was an okay day until my fuckin stalker [no names] dead ass grilled me down going home like wtf. -__- but that was my day lol :]

wookie <33 (:

the guy i love with all my heart !! (:

alright where to start w. mr. anton. lol wookie wookie wookie. uhm i actually seen him around school when i was a freshman. back then when he thought he was the shit fuckin girls &+ leavin he was a bad kid. i never noticed him. then he was talkin to my good friend cassandra. &+ from what i heard from her he was awful hurtful &+ he just wanted sex &+ never wanted a girl. pftt why talk to a dude like that i always told her. when i saw her cry july 2nd 2008 on her birthday i decided to curse this mother fucka out ! he hurt my best friend ! like wtf is good w. him! so i friend requested him &+ he tried to sweet talk me &+ what not noo noo noo ! hadda tell him what was goin on w. cassandra. he told me the truth &+ i just looked at this girl at a totally different perspective. we got into an arguement &+ we didnt like eachother. anyways. my friend andrea was talking to this kid jones. &+ shes been sneakin out to go see him &+ said i should go too. soo i say why not.? i snuck out chilled &+ hadda bomb time. we came two days later &+ look whose there ! WOOKKIEEEEEE ! alright im not gonna lie he was cute in person but i didnt see him like that i mean he fucked loose neck cassandra . eww.? me him andrea amber &+ magic all looked like bums in the middle of the street just talking till like 6 in the morning it was bomb haha (: i had to admit i had a crush on him. he wrote to me on myspace the next day told me to come over cusz they're going pool hopping. so i was like lets doo this. so me andrea amber &+ darlanne get there &+ we started jumpin fences &+ pool hoppin &+ i seen this nigga naked lmfaoo ! so we started playing truth or dare &+ the dreaded kiss between me &+ isasis. i mean i mean he liked me but idkk . i couldnt deny him so it was only me &+ him in the pool just talkin &+ kissin i felt madd weird cusz i was actually thinkin about wookie. hehe. so we get out &+ i remember the exact words he told me "damn jenn you got me a lil jealous" my heart started beating mad fast never knew why soo bla bla bla i admitted i liked him &+ me andrea amber &+ darlanne were in the room with wookie magic &+ jones lmfao everyone started making out &+ shit lmfaoo &+ all of a sudden all you hear. POP BOTTLES ! LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOO i was dying ! niggas was tryna kick darlanne out lol wasnt happening. ANYWAYS. summer came &+ went i started chillin w. wookie everyday &+ i caught madd feelings. there was this one time he climbed in my window &+ we just talked for hours &+ we kissed &+ fell asleep together it was soo cute. (: then in like august he went to job corps. i was madd sad.shit happened made us seperate for a while but he was still in my mind. i hadda boyfriend when i talked to him again just recently broken up. &+ i told him to come over to chill. and thats when i lost my virginity to him haha. we became real close after that. &+ somehow i fell in love with him (: . like i know we seperate for a while after that &+ we became close again like reall close. i started believing the world over him i needed a break from him &+ we still on a break. but i hope he knows no matter what happens between us that i love him with all my heart. hes like my best friend &+ i trust him with everything. hes my backbone &+ as mad as i get at him i cant just stop talking to him &+ no one will compare to him EVER ! &+ i see us having something real special in the future. &+ any guy that i date or any girl he dates i hope he know i'll always hold him down no matter what. we've been thru hell &+ back &+ back to hell. lol i love you babe. dont ever doubt that for a single second. becuase my feelings will never stop just continue growing (:

LOCKED UP !

i love this girl more than words can explain brittany harris la torre =/

ugh so yesterday was such a lonngggg day. it was filled with tear jerking moments "betrayal" scary situations &+ life changing lessons. so i wake up at like 10 to a freaking phone call its brittany's [my best friend] grandmother asking where do i live so i tell her &+ met her outside becuase she's from new york &+ knows nothing about worcester so i invite her inside &+ tells me to help her find britt. brittany ran away from home 3 days ago &+ since shes my best friend of course i was covering for her. she was staying at my house slept &+ ate until my mom came home from work &+ the she went to our other friend kia's house but the cops invaded that shit so she was roaming around which got me o.d worried ! but i still didnt say anything. soo her grandma gets on her knees &+ BEGS me to tell her something to help her find her becuase shes really worried. i didnt fall for it i told her i dont know anything at all. so she starts bawling &+ begging even more she started choking &+ she threw up on my legs. FORCED. i felt really bad &+ since imma softy to people who cry especially elderly i agreed to help. so i took a shower &+ just when i got out fucking cops were at my house &+ cuffed my ass FORCED once again. supposivly im get arrested for conspiracy or some shit like that i wasnt listening.niggas didnt even let me put nothing in my hair so i was in a holding cell for about 2 hours felt like 3 years !. i realized i was in the same holding cell brittany was in the year before so i carved my name in there as well ! :] but yeah brittanys mom &+ grandmother bailed me out as long as i helped. i said i didnt know anything else &+ the police asked me if i knew some girl kia (place where police raided becuase britt was staying there) i said i do but not well enough considering me &+ britt met her last month. they made a plan to make it seem i was looking for britt becuase britt didnt know anything. at first i didnt want to but i felt soo bad for the grandmother. so i agreed. they let me go i went inside kias &+ they knew NOTHING of britt. so i told them if she gets there tell her to come to my house. we searched for hours until my mom calls brittanys grandmother cellphone saying brittany just left my house. we pratically flew over there! we ran thru east middle looking for her we went to my friend glorias &+ then my friend andrea where she was . i didnt even want to tell on her honestly. but i thought about it. she was trying to be on the run for 1 year &+ 3 months. no one wouldve supported her that long &+ her family was really worried. i let them know she was in the house without her knowing, &+ finally she was caught. &+ before everything she told me she hated me &+ called me a bitch. man did that hurt. her mother &+ grandmother were soo grateful &+ they told me i was there hero &+ gaurdian angel i felt happy they said that but i lost my best friend the only person that was there through everything. but her mom &+ grandmother told me "you know jenn brittany might be mad now but in time she'll be grateful you may not believe it but you saved her life &+ we love you for that" so yeah i helped them find her but i did it for her own good i rather have her home with her family then running around like a lunatic soon to bee looking in trash cans for food. =/so as we speak shes arrested &+ she'll be serving at least a month in a rehab but i hope she learns a lesson. &+ i hope she has in her heart to forgive me &+ know i only did the best for her.=/

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